The Reborn of my soul ( chapter 17 )

I now can understand what had happen to me, i know can put in words even if it wouldnt be enough, but i will try, to give my testimony of dying, and re born again. Chapters ago, i have talk about my healing process, because it was or it is how i felt it, now, and today, after seeing and receiving the signals, the messages, the thoughts, after thinking about it many times, as many times i did, ir went clear for me, that what i been through was a total re born of my soul, when i was in my worst moments, in the most painful ones, and the hardest ones, i felt my body empty, i felt weak, i felt lost, but not lost as when we say it because we get confused, i mean lost as if i was letting go my whole being, to receive myself, my true self finally. I can talk about it now, that the time healed almost everything that seemed like a nightmare to me, like hell, like it wont ever end, it felt horrible, and the worst part was, not knowing when it will be over, or how it will be over. My re born process took my body, my mind, my soul, my heart, and everything that i have, into one of the most painful situations i couldn't have ever imagine, thanks to this experience, i have learn many things, many lessons as i mentioned before, but one of these is, that my body is as important as my mind and my soul, which i didnt realize until my body hold me up these weeks, months, until i felt my body saying i can't go further, until my body did no longer respond to what i wanted or expected, this is how serious it was, my energy lower than never before couldnt help me too, and my mind in the same state, begging for resting, waiting to stop, all of this did not work together as my whole life it did, imagine the feeling of not understanding why? but yet, deciding to survive, to keep going, to dont give up, only my Faith kept me going, i cant give the responsibility to anyone or anything else byt my faith, because it was truly a re born physically, mentally, spiritually. I know deep in my soul i have ask for it long time ago, when i started to feel like, something wasnt right, something in my heart was telling me please start all over again, this is not you, not you fully, the messages i have receive from the Universe was always clear, but it was my desicion that opened the doors of change, until i decide to do what i did, or better yet, to accept this challenge that at one point felt impossible, until i open my heart to heal, there were always something within me telling me i should, telling me its needed, telling me it have to happen, sooner or later, you need it, you must, so i finally did. I will never forget this year, and even if i am 41 years old, i will also count as my first year date, of my re born season, of the hugest healing in my life, of a greater life, of my awake journey, my real real life, myself, pure and conscious and ready to get back the energy i need, a new energy, an elevated one, to live my life, to enjoy it, to let go, to forgive, to not judge, to be mentally and physically HERE in the present, to stop running, stop being afraid, stop all the negative things that were living around, and didnt let me enjoy it as i wanted. This, is a new chapter in the book of my life.