When life goes harder *Chapter 1*
2022-02-27 20:07:19 - Elizabeth
This is a chapter everybody has in their lives at least once. That chapter where everything seems to fall apart, where we could literally feel the world is against us, where sometimes and very often we feel there seems no way out of the situation. The feeling of desperation, insecurities, anxiety, sleepless nights, worries, and all kind of horrible feelings we call awake nightmares. We feel that can't find the solution and the desperation for it, and so, it makes it even worst to handle. Where the most horrible thoughts come to visit us no matter how hard we try to avoid them, it is like a inner enemy trying to came out and we find ourselves fighting against it. Why do we fight against it? because it is a simple and normal reaction driven by our fears. We do want it to be over, we want to click a button and make it go away right away. We want some kind of magic visiting us, some kind of miracle to take it off of us, to eliminate the pain, that monster is and never will be welcome in our lives, but again, why do we fight against it? It is a tricky reaction from us, and we do it because is the easier way to respond to that non welcome visitor in this chapter of our lives. For a long time, we been educated to solve things, and not how to solve things, the belief of solving it fast were equal to succeed against it, but it is a lie. In order to solve something fast, we have to avoid many red flags, signals, and alerts, and this is how the monster which was a simple seed, became a whole tree without letting us know, or better said, without us paying attention while it were growing inside out. The misseducation of * I can solve this quickly to move on * Is not only a big scam, a lie, a fool yourself tip, but also is how we have feed that monster to become so huge, that we couldnt deal with it anymore, or that is what we thought. Starting from that, there we got the first reason of that missery season of our lives, the monster. And this is the part where if we were aware of it, we could make it easier, but of course, we dont like to make it easy, we just pretend we do. It can take few months it can take few years, and in some real life cases, it took that person whole life to realize or even, to leave earth without knowing what had happen to that person and the monster. It is how we have create the most amazing and incredible illness that came from nowhere ( Like we think it does ) it is how some people ended up on the other side of the road. Fighting against the monster, instead of facing, understanding, releasing, forgiving, healing, working, investing time and energy, being patient to finally set free that monster, which, all that he needed was to be set free, believe me, he doesnt want to live inside us either, he did not chose us, we have chosen him for this exhausting job.