The evidence of signals ( Chapter 5 )

Following my state of mind and my process of healing, i feel i should talk about the evidence of signals. I know because i been and i am in this situation right now, how hard is for us to see or recognize the Divine signals we receive, in the worst moments of our lives. And i know many of us question the WHY instead of focus in the * What is this for * i been there for a while, and it seems that was enough mental torture for myself, that last night i got the question changed by my spirit, from WHY or HOW LONG to, What is this for? Then i felt peace, mental peace, as when a messenger come to your home to deliver a package in your name, as when we got good news but instead of being a Doctor good news, it was a spiritual good news, that says, that until i make the decision, GOD cant bless me and bring me the miracle in the middle of confussion and contradictions...THEN! my brain got like iluminated, i have received at night a huge revelation, the revelation i didnt ask for but that answered my biggest doubt, WHY? and now, it became my what for! The season of my life, of being my own contradiction and my own confusion is coming to an end, thanks to this revelation, because i felt like GOD put me face to face with the main problem, i have been my own obstacle, my own stone, my own enemy. This is one of the hardest yet beautiful moments of my life, i read one book that talked about a homeless sitting in a box for 20 year, and he was begging money to the people who pass by him, for too many years already, then one day, this man walk across and the homeless asked him for money, so this man asked to the homeless, what is inside that box your sitting everyday? The homeless said i dont know, i been sitting my whole life in this and i have never opened the box, then this man told him, what if you open the box? The homeless unninterested opened the box .... and found out he had a lot of money there saved and all what he needed and he were asking to strangers what he already had.... We have within everything we need already, but we forget to open the box, we ignore it, we convince ourselves that the box is just a box, we feel it could be empty, until the day we open it. This book message i thought was in my head as nothing important, i have read too many books and now i SEE that i been sitting in my box solution my whole life, just as the homeless did. My whole life! That is a long long time! is just like that. I cannot call it an idea, or a awake dream, it is my first big revelation of all times. And i woke up today telling myself dont you ever forget again about the box you are sitting in. Dont you ever forget who you are. Dont you ever forget how many problems you have solved, for yourself and others. Dont you ever forget how many times you were saved by GOD and the divine pressence. Dont you ever forget what is within you. Dont you ever go back to be the homeless siting in a box. You are your own fountain, use it wisely, learn to say: No, i cant, i wont, maybe later, i dont want to do it, as much as you been saying YES YES YES YES YES YES! Because a NO from time to time, is healthy too. A NO to one thing is a YES to another thing that has been waiting for your DECISIONS! wow! this surely will stay in my heart and soul for ever. I got the message! now i will be the messenger. Now i can help myself and others to open the box, or at least to share the message of something that i experienced, and not to be that homeless who were stucked anymore.