the Vessel ( Chapter 9 )

In the process of changing many things happens, lessons, challenges, new feelings, new thoughts, new people around us, old people leaving us, perspectives will feel different than how it felt before, patience will have a bigger meaning for us during and after the process, ideologies could change or have a new meaning for us too. Too many areas are affected and it should be this way, because is something we need to go through sooner or later in our lives. In this chapter i want to talk about becoming the blessing to bless someone else, becoming the vessel, the bridge, the light, the opportunity, the reason. Whenever we take any decision to make changes, we often forget how these changes will impact others, and mostly whoever that is around us, with us. In many situations it will be harder for us, difficult and even seem impossible to make it, but then only after we overcome the situation we went through is when we will be able to see, and recognize that we have been used to change others too, to make impact, to influence someone else or more than one person around us, it takes one brave soul to help few others, and of course, the sacrifice of accepting this is what we decide to do and be, the change, the one responsible of breaking the chains that have been holding us for too long, and not only us, but also our entire circle. Yes it is incredible how can we suffer and at the same time help others without even knowing we are doing it, influencing others or being the blessing in response of someone else prayer. There is no perfect time to be it, to change it, to understand it, there never will be a perfect explanation for it, or a list of things to do to make it easier, or faster, or enjoyable, it will always come when we less expect it, it will start in the moment we dont even realize it started, it will be harder than what we could imagine, because it is how it works, life does it, the universe decide and we are never prepared, but we adapt to the situation as much as our soul and faith let us do it. This time, when i have decided i wanted to change, and make new moves in my life to receive new blessings, new results, new doors open, new ways of help, new perspective, new points of views, this time where i thought i was healing myself, i was finally taking care of myself, i though it was about me, and life, again and again showed me how amazing and incredible our struggle can become, that in the exact same moment where i was under the storm, without knowing i was doing it, my circle was changing at the same time i was, my whole life did a turn into a better place, of course i have not realize it until the storm were smaller, and less painful, in the process, during the process, you cannot see it, you cant guess it, you just cant, what you can do is have faith! faith took me here, and patience, because it seems forever, it feels eternal, it feels almost impossible, and only I could believe in myself the way i did, i felt my soul in pain, and i lifted it up, people around me could have said, it is going to be ok, but you and I know, there is no phrase, no word, no saying, that could save us if we dont have faith in our journey every single day. What i have discovered, and i am still in the process of my biggest change, is that it takes one corageous person to change and help others to do the same. I can confirm that i have a strong faith, and as i said before, that is one of the reasons why i am still here today, my faith, my beliefs, my awareness of my soul, my life, my blessings, of how the impossible become possible, how after it felt eternal there is a light of hope, a blessing new beginning. Now i can confirm what my soul, heart, body, and mind knew, to believe is to survive and find our paradise from within. I am forever thankful to be here writing this experience, that took so long, that felt so horrible, that took all my strength away, but today i am here, i am still here, and there is a divine reason for it. It has to be this way, it had to happen, i accept it, i embrace it, and i recognize it as it is. I am today, where i am suppose to be. Thank you.